Normal

A long week has come to an end. And while everything in life comes to an end at some point or another, it doesn't make it an easier to cope with. Memories, photos, videos will always be there to think about, see, or watch, but the actual is not there anymore. So how do we go back to "normal"? Is "normal" even really normal anymore? 

I decided I would go into work today and see what I can get accomplished after being out all of last week after the unexpected & untimely death of my mother. My siblings and I have had an outpouring of support from family, friends, co-workers, and those who knew our mother. While I am still very saddened by her loss, I felt as though I could come back and try to get back into the "swing of things". I am not too sure how it will work out, but as I have said with another blog post, all journeys begin with a single step. I just hope that I haven't taken a giant leap instead of just a step. I guess time will tell. 

As far as everything else is concerned, I am sure we will begin to see things die down as far as those coming by to see us, or calling to check and see if we need anything, as with any other thing in life, all must come to an end. But as Semisonic stated in Closing Time: "Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end." So that is how I will view this, a new beginning stemming from another's end. So I will keep my head held high, remember all of the great times, and look forward to the future. I have made many major decisions in the past couple of weeks and am I proud of each of them. Maybe not entirely happy, but proud none-the-less. I have a much more well-rounded outlook on life. Especially after everything that happened over the past few weeks, life is too short to be angry at trivial things or to hold grudges or to not love those who truly mean the most to you with all your heart. There is no "half-assing" it anymore for me. Live life to its fullest and have no regrets.

I thank everyone in my life for being supportive to me for not only my mother's passing, but also for my other issues. I am as strong as I am because of it. It will not be easy, nor will it be quick, or even ever ending for that matter. Time can heal wounds, but sometimes you need constant assistance in order to keep other things in check. I look forward to where ever my life leads me in the months and years to come. So as I continue to work on my family and especially on myself, I will try to figure out what "normal" is going to be for me now. 

I Love You Forever Mom!! Will be missing you lots from now till the time He takes me to be with you. I know you are watching over us all and that you are with loved ones. Just know that we will always remember your lessons and continue to work hard for each other. No need to worry, you taught us very well and we have each other to lean on when things get tough. Till we meet again..... MUAH!!