Change

“The greatest mistake you can make in life is to be continually fearing you will make one.”

--- Elbert Hubbard

“Change will not come if we wait for some other person, or if we wait for some other time. We are the ones we've been waiting for. We are the change that we seek.”
--- Barack Obama


“When people are ready to, they change. They never do it before then, and sometimes they die before they get around to it. You can't make them change if they don't want to, just like when they do want to, you can't stop them.”
--- Andy Warhol, Andy Warhol in His Own Words

People inherently are afraid of change. We like our routines, our ways of life, the ways we go about each and every day. When something causes us to be deviated from that, some people fret. Others push through and realize that it is only a minor speed bump in the highway we call life. Some other people don't think that change can be permanent, that it was merely an abberant. 

If people had not changed or learned to adapt, mankind would not be where it is today. We would still be living in caves, hunting with rocks and sharpened sticks. To believe that we as humans aren't still evolving day in and day out is absurd. I can understand why people would believe that certain individuals cannot truly change. When you admit to being an addict (drug, alcohol, shopping, sex, etc.) you are always that. At that point, the only way to make others believe you are not currently that is by your actions. You must be able to be strong enough to resist temptation all around you. Even as far back as the beginning of time (God's creation if that is your belief), there has been temptation. Eve didn't resist the temptation to eat the fruit and for that, all of mankind was cast from the Garden of Eden. 

Change is to make different in some particular aspect. I have made the decision to make changes in my life. I was leading a life that was way out of control. I was in jeopardy of losing my job, my friends, and ultimately my marriage. I have realized the pain I have caused those closest to me. It pains me to know the amount of hurt I have caused so many people. Change doesn't come easy and sometimes is not going to come without some help and support. I have sought out my help and I have those still closest to me for support. For those who do not believe people are able to change and truly be different, I ask you to continue to follow me. I will be sure to post as often as I can to allow you a glimpse into my progress. I know I will always have a description of being what I was, so I am going to make my actions speak volumes over my words. I know it is a long, uphill road to regain trust from some people, but I assure you, with the help, support, and guidance I have and will receive, that I will get to where I want to be.